NODIN

1-searching-for-the-sun-resizedSo in love.

We were beautiful.

Our long brown hair undefined and intertwined by love & legs & eyes

So much fun          So much freedom             So free

Deep love

Perfect height perfect love

Too perfect

So perfect…

So perfect that God wanted us to share our beauty

1981

I was wearing a long, plaid skirt I must’ve looked like a teacher wearing a vest and slip and all.

The checkup proved our love in fact connected in a way that was unexpected for two children in love.

Our eyes flowed like waterfalls eternal.

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So unknown      So scared        Too young

But not too young for our bodies to work their magic.

My best friend at College fed me saltines in the dining hall.

It was pouring rain. It was Windy.

Winds were blowing the trees against the huge windows.

The decisions

The decision

…was made out of love

The love

The eternal love

The waiting room

My best friend from home held my hands…intertwined

My name was called out from some ghost who will haunt me forever

The recovery room with loving women holding my hand as I cried out to Him

The sobbing screams of a little girl who has been changed forever

(The screams that would, however joyfully match in tone the moment my perfect sons were born over twenty years later)

Sipping hot, sweet tea in my best friend’s kitchen miles away from the spot where love trapped us in a corner.

Too young      So sorry

NODIN

Native America like his father

Sturdy and blooming like his mother

Wind eternal

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Seeds to make more red bud trees from love eternal

You are the Wind that sings through my Red Bud tree, where the birds sing, the squirrels climb and play. I watch the tree’s silky buds fall to the ground. You push them off as if playing with the squirrels. The seeds become one with Mother Earth.

My Wind is forever   My Love is forever

My love

My aching love will wait until the time in space when I can see your God-like face to ask for forgiveness.

To Forgive Me.

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In Native American the meaning of the name Nodin is: Wind.

Numerology   Soul Urge Number: 6  People with this name have a deep inner desire for a stable, loving family or community, and a need to work with others and to be appreciated. Expression Number: 11  People with this name tend to be idealistic, highly imaginative, intuitive, and spiritual. They seek after spiritual truth and often find it. They tend to be visionary and may inspire others. Favorite numbers include…#41……..

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